ek - entropic Well Current 5/20/25

Neurodivergence: Disability or Superpower?

I am kind of obsessed with taking awesome cloud pictures. It might be because the clouds remind me of this inner push and pull of coziness to pulling out of the clutches of comfort.

I've been conversing with folks more and more about my entropic theory. Each time I visit and talk it over with folks who have felt similar - and there are alot more than I realized - the images and words around this concept get a little more clear.

I do honestly believe every neurodivergent folk no matter how high on the spectrum can find power in the diagnosis instead of disability. Sure, if you can prove its a disability you get benefits and support from the state. But mentally, thinking of myself as disabled has the debilitating effect moreso than the actual thought pattern differences create. A brain wiring difference isn't a disability - it's a key. What it unlocks is up to you.

Just like any superpower or perk in life there are trade offs. The more I learn and am capable of holding, the harder to hold onto more things at once in the random access memory folder. There just isn't room to shuffle things around and look through them with clarity when there is so much.

But now if I look at this issue through a superpower training lense, I just haven't learned to optimize it yet.

(All superheroes have that eye of the tiger training period) 

X-tiles has been incredibly useful - no paid endorsement. I've also been reading about Zettelkastens and Smart Note systems. Possibly paid endorsements if I can find the links.

The paper versions sound like something I'll start get confused about the decimal system, loose, and never really grasp enough of. But this article is a bit more clear because I have been sorting my thoughts in an x-tiles zettlekasten. There are so many ways to sort the information and find it later. Little digital collection cards can be made.

When I have the bandwidth I'll be setting up an ebay store in my xtiles first and then copying the listing info - Possibly direct upload, we'll see - into an eBay store. 

And this is why I feel like I'm circling the entropic Well right now. I have so many projects and each of them feel possible because of my tools. The zettlekasten and therapy, but defining energy and practicing a balanced schedule doesn't always mean success. In superhero training there are a (mantra is the wrong word) of frames of failure. This is a frame of near success for me, but still trying too hard to put many projects together like planets which is what newtons laws were meant for and I feel are appropriate for my emotional state theory on entropy.

A body at rest stays at rest - it takes energy to change its direction (this is intent) which Caren Magill was juat speaking about in a video I was watching to climb out of my entropic Well.

Patience - 

The single piece of growth I need to focus on is patience. Through my tech work experiences and management I became incredibly impatient. There is some level of time management and awareness I need to work through to get a better respect for time and therefore have a chance at expecting a project be completed in the appropriate amount of time. But overall my struggle is with learning how to be patient with my progress, internally.

I have used intention anchors as slingshot to increase progress before, but I know this time that intense progress is only possible if the anchor is strong. I need to re-visit my identity kit and form a very strong anchor as well as define the go point to let go of one project and move onto the next.

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The next goal is managing my entropic pull long enough to pay the negative balance on my bank account and float my business tech (website, po box, and phone) to be able to build something of value. While working to support bills, which I am ever grateful to my parents for allowing me space to recuperate and launch from. Honestly the stigma around living with parents is so stupid when rent is higher than a house payment. But we haven't crashed the ship yet, so I still have another month to accomplish the life goals: move storage into shed,plant garden to harvest instead of buy food. Dash for gas.

Biz next steps

Make brochures and postcards to send & pass out.

Follow Marketing agency resale guide with my effervescent values - it's possible with bravery as its never been done before to my knowledge. I'll find or forge my path.

Ebay progress to declutter house

A corner of office is organized

Mom is finally willing to let stuff go...in theory.

 Next step organize ebay listings into a system with x-tiles and box to ship once sold